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Taking the bus is tiring. I think it's not so much that it takes anywhere from 2-4 times as long as usual; I think it's mostly that it's really hard to resist looking out the window and seeing the ruins of used bookstores (bricks and books comingled), and of churches (open-air pews and curtains flapping in the frame of a stained-glass window), and of houses.

If you live in anything resembling an earthquake zone, resist the temptation of firewalls. A firewall seems like such a good idea at the time, but it's really really not. Not if you want four walls.

Some houses and walls remain standing thanks to hastily-erected wood-frame buttressing.

Army tanks in full camo continue to crawl our streets. Yesterday on Moorhouse I saw a couple handing a bunch of flowers to a soldier. I smiled. Then I realised that the flowers were lilies and were more likely intended to be taken to somewhere like the CTV building. The remains being recovered from the CTV building now are too small to be identified from DNA/dental records.

On campus a hastily erected sign says "City bus". I learned in due course that this meant a bus belonging to the city, not a bus going to the city; in fact the only bus-belonging-to-the-city that passes there is one of the few that never goes to the city at all. Communicated this to some minions of the Progressive Restart folk so hopefully it will wend its way up the chain and get something done about it before things are back to normal.

Not the new normal. The new normal changes every few hours. The eventual normal, I guess.

I got enough energy to call the plumber; he'll contact me again next week. Shower pressure seemed normal today. I don't understand that shower; never have, really, it's just I know what settings worked in the old normal.

Last night I smeared toothpaste on my toothbrush and then noticed a drip fall from the tap: I'd wet the toothbrush under the tap instead of with kettle water. I stared at it for a while but was too tired to boil it then and there, so just rinsed it with the kettle water and went on. If I get gastro I know who to blame.

The Fraction Liquefaction video made me smile the other day. (Warning: May not be comprehensible to those outside ChCh/NZ.) This morning I watched it again and it made me so cheerful I cried. Cried properly for the first time. My eyes have leaked before, sometimes heavily, and occasionally I've managed a half-hearted sob but until now that's as far as my energy's extended. So having a proper cry was fantastic; albeit poorly timed, because then I had to rush off to catch my bus.

We drove over the bridge on Moorhouse, newly repaired. It felt disconcertingly vertiginous.

They had counsellors at work today. The original plan was for them to be in offices for us to visit, but one seemed to have got bored waiting for someone to turn up because he came out and wandered the workrooms instead. He seemed satisfied when I told him that I'm okay with not being okay: that is, it's rather evident that I'm an utter mess at the moment and happy as I was feeling this morning there was never any way I'd be able to get through a conversation with him without my eyes leaking, but there's no point attempting to fix it with sympathy or counselling or sleeping pills(1) because there's nothing to fix, really; it would be more worrisome if I wasn't feeling crappy. Been here before in September and I know how it goes: I just need rest and time.

(1) I mention sleeping pills not because I've been sleeping badly (I'm not) but because the doctor spontaneously offered them to me when I went to my regular checkup the other day. I declined but accepted the offer of a flu jab instead. Flu jabs are like breath mints: if someone offers you one and you're not allergic you should always accept it.

Today I also talked to my manager about next week's timetable; sounds like it can be arranged so I can go in for longer chunks of time (possibly less often, that doesn't matter to me so much) so I don't keep spending more time travelling than on campus. --Though a later email doesn't take this conversation into account. Meh, no doubt the situation will change a couple times more over the weekend.

Picked up my asthma medication from a pharmacy nearby that I never knew existed because I always went to the one in the mall.

On the sewerage system:
"The first task was to flush silt out of all pipes, which was expected to take up to four months, before assessing the damage and beginning repairs." [Source: The Press]

The sounds of the earthquake - I love how she says "Ooh, there's a big earthquake" in approximately the same tones as one might say, "Ooh, it's started raining". Of course then the earthquake keeps going, so, yeah.

The house keeps making little #eqnz wobbles today. I don't understand. Ken Ring didn't say anything about 1st April!

My back door is going through a phase in which the lock actually works as intended. (When it doesn't work as intended it still works, it's just when you unlock it it stays locked so you mustn't pull it shut behind you unless you've got your keys with you. Of course since the earthquake you have to make some effort to pull it shut behind you anyway so that's all good.)

Date: 2011-04-01 04:56 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] rumpelsnorcack
So jealous of your proper cry, even if it was badly timed. The memorial day is still the closest I've got to letting it all out and I kind of only released a dribble. The flood is still locked away in there somewhere.

I'm thinking I should take a bus to your side of town. I'm deeply frustrated at not having seen anything, which makes the whole experience so much more surreal. Like, I know it's happening ... but I'm kind of also in denial as well. I need to see it to actually start to believe it.

Date: 2011-04-01 05:57 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] rumpelsnorcack
Sounds good. I was going to suggest meeting up again so that could work nicely. Heading off to figure out where to catch the number 5 - or I could drive myself but that seems wasteful of petrol and roads and stuff.

Date: 2011-04-01 06:37 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] rumpelsnorcack
Hmmm looking at the maps I'd have to go to Southshore to catch it and that's quite a hike. Though I suppose I could make a day of it. Take the 45 into Bealey, catch the link around, get the number 5 and head out your way. I can't find anything that connects me with you more directly, so a direct line would involve me driving and taking up room on the roads. I can't even figure out if there's something which links me with you under normal circumstances, but I doubt it. Bus services to this part of town aren't very comprehensive.

Date: 2011-04-01 10:41 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] rumpelsnorcack
Yeah it's all a bit of a rigmarole. I'll probably give in and just drive, though there's something nice about being in a bus and able to watch what's going on outside which you just can't do when driving.

Date: 2011-04-01 05:26 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] poetrychook.blogspot.com
They've fixed the Moorhouse overbridge? I guess something is getting done then..

Date: 2011-04-01 08:57 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] caper_est
He seemed satisfied when I told him that I'm okay with not being okay:


It sounds like you may have one of the good ones. That it's also okay for people not to be okay, especially when their circumstances are not okay, is to me one of the first things anybody who wants to help or comfort others ought to work into the marrow of their bones. Not least, because it's also IME one of the hardest.

Yes, it is good to be able to cry after long restriction to mere useless leakage. I, too, have found it can take an inordinate while after the fall of the blow.

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